remember getting ready to stand up befo re a group of maybe 2000 people to p reach at a pastor friend’s church when I had a brief talk with God. It hadn’t been a g reat week. My relationship with the Lord still had an unhealthy component of “do” in those days. It’s one thing to have a crummy week all by your self. It’s another thing to crash and burn in front of a large group of people that expect you to tell them what God has to say to them.
A minute befo
re I was to p reach I simply said “God I’m sorry I’m not perfect”. It was a heartfelt comment with a slight spin.
He & I both knew no one would confuse me with perfection, especially “that” week.
Though I meant it, I probably wanted to show contrition so He wouldn’t let me crash and burn in front of all those people.
I was not p
repa red for the quick fi reside chat I encounte red at that moment. I heard the Lord speak in my spirit “So you’ re saying that your perfection is better than the Blood of Jesus?” No Lord that’s not what I meant. Instantly I heard Him say “That’s exactly what you said”.
My dad was a very hard working, ext
remely gentle Irishman. I have long said my dad wasn’t perfect, but he was the perfect dad for me. I remember feeling that day as if God was speaking those same words over me.
In my short chat with my heavenly dad that day befo
re p reaching I realized an important truth regarding my relationship with God…..
I would rather be forgiven than self-righteously perfect any day.
Growing in Grace I have
realized my heavenly father isn’t being patient with me, He IS patient. He can’t be any other way.
That’s not trivial semantics. Even the most patient person (like my natural dad) can at times loose their patience – but not God! He does not want me fearing I am disappointing Him. You may be disappointed when your
restaurant meal doesn’t meet your expectations, but how can the God who knows everything ever be disappointed by unfulfilled expectations? He always knows exactly what He’s going to get.
I have also come to
realize forgiveness isn’t something I have to request daily. I received His complete forgiveness the day I accepted Jesus Christ because Jesus paid the complete penalty for my sin (past, p resent, futu re).
The chat with my heavenly father that day has brought such f
reedom in my relationship with Jesus. I no longer help the devil beat me up with condemnation. I don’t call myself condescending names when I have a bad day anymo re.
I get it now……
really is finished.
I hope you throw yourself at the mercy of God and find Grace to help in your time of need (He.4:16).
really is just that in to you.